Part Two
...So there we are with this caseworker, asking questions, shooting the breeze and inside we are about to bust with excitement --- we are about to have a baby. Sorta. Well, Melissa (not her real name, duh!) was about to have our baby. The caseworker said she'd call us the next morning when it looked like the birth was imminent. We were getting ready for her call, when she called and said "get here quick". We've never moved so fast! We got to the hospital and waited for about 30 min. Our beautiful baby boy was born @ 8:00 A.M. on February 17th, 2005. What a wonderful world! We were called into the nursery, where we saw him for the first time. We were able to stay for his first bath, measuring,weighing etc. It was incredible. The next few days were an emotional roller coaster. *Melissa, was crying (hormones ya know) off and on. We were afraid she might change her mind. We prayed and prayed. For her, for us and especially for that precious baby boy. * Melissa would say that she wanted to meet me,then I would get to her door and she would tell them "not yet". This happened many times. It was emotionally draining(plus, I fixed my hair and put on lip gloss every single time so that I would hopefully win her favor - go figure -nerves). I really did worry that I might say something or do something that would change her mind. OR - what if she just. did. not. like. me.? Well, she finally felt the time was right and had me come in. Oh my, Time stood still for about 15 minutes that day. She cried the whole time. I cried the whole time. It was sad. It was beautiful. I saw before me a young woman with so much love in her heart for this baby, that she would sacrifice her own desires for the best interests of this child. It was a beautiful portrait of sacrificial love. I'm at a loss for what to say next. I'm crying as I type this -do you see the smudges-they're here. I am so thankful for that young woman every day of my life. When I look into my child's eyes or see his incredible smile, I am so humbled that God has allowed us to parent him. When we hold him,and tickle him and kiss him and just breathe him in -- we are so thankful for his birthmom -- the vessel that God chose to bring this child into this world. I am so thankful that she loved this baby and was willing to choose an adoption plan rather than abort. I cannot imagine this world or my life without this amazing little baby boy in it.
Happy 1st birthday baby!
P.S. yes, there will be pics from the party on Sat.
I bet your wondering --HMMM, what is it that you've learned in a years time (the title)? Don't worry - it's coming.