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March 31, 2006


Chaotic Mom

My heart has broken. Trust me, God is using you.

I think this study has come at a time when I needed it, too. I'm going through others' study comments, and I fell like such a beginner again. I couldn't even type "deep" thoughts this week. Good thing it's a ten week study. God has some work to do with me. ;)


Oh Faith, how your post speaks my heart! I too am guilty of being an unclean vessel. I too at times do acknolwledge MY sin. Thanks so much for sharing this. I have got some work to do. My heart needs some major spring cleaning!

Hope your son is feeling better.


What a great blog. Thank you so much for that!


Really thoughtful post. That ties in so much to what I've been feeling this week...that the "stumbling blocks" in my life are my own doing. And it's just WEEK ONE. :-) I can't wait to see where all of this is leading....

Hope your little man is feeling better! I've been praying for y'all.


Faith, you are so right when you say that sometimes we are not clean vessels. God knows our heart, He knows our thoughts. Even though we might not speak evil, we might think evil. At least it is true for me. So many times I have offened Him, with what I have done, but also what I have left undone *sigh*.
But we do have His promise that we are His forever and ever and that He will lead us, even when we are not His perfect vessel.


Ohhhh, take the shackles off my feet so I can dance, I just want to praise Him, I just want to praise Him!

I can tell I'm going to love the weekends for the next ten weeks.

When we were doing the sign language in the video, I thought of you. Then when the Day 5 lesson about adoption came up again my mind wandered to you and your little man. I had to shake myself I bit and say, "Hey Lauren it's not only about them, this is about you. You're the adopted one!" Awesome! Loved your thoughts.


Oh, Faith ... I also struggle with not acknowledging sin as sin in my own life. Thank you so much for posting this. It has touched me.

And... I trust little man is feeling better.


"What that means to me is, that I am a Christian, but I am not always filled with the Holy Spirit. God may be looking for someone to reach a certain person, to minister to them in some way today - can He use me? OR, will He have to pass me over for a clean vessel."

I'm bothered by this kind of thinking in the church, because it puts the focus on US and our performance, instead of on God, and how good he is to use us at all--ever. Who among us is a clean vessel?! God must always work inspite of our sins and tainted motives, and to say otherwise is to slip into a works mentality, IMO.

We should always be aware of our sin, and confess it, but we should be wary of viewing ourselves as unusable. Isn't God big enough to work inspite of our sins? And then, when we ARE used by God, won't pride slip in, craftily telling us, "Yes, you are clean and worthy now." Or cause us to idolize others who we deem as worthy to be used? What about the sins we're not even aware of? We may not be as bedient as we would like, but we are always filled with the Holy Spirit, because that is done inspite of us.

Not trying to be critical, just my two sense for what it's worth :o)


Great post Faith. Thanks for the reminder.


Sheryl, I think you might be taking Faith's comments to the extreme. Certainly God can use us despite our sin, or he wouldn't be able to use anybody. Faith is not suggesting that she has to be 'good' to be used of God. There are vast differences between having a works mentality and having a desire to reconcile yourself with God, so that you may be better used by him. I John 1:6-9 & II Cor. 7:10-11

In fact, the whole point of this study is to learn to Live Beyond Ourselves. The Spirit working in us and through us and not in our own power.

Faith, great post. I can think of many times in my life where I have allowed sin to separate me from God for far to long.

Hope little man is back to good health. I too thought you might really be able to connect with adoption in day 5. Like Lauren, I had to realize, "Hey Add! Start applying this to your life, not others."


Oh goodness, I am not the best writer in the world, so I may not have expressed my feelings in an accurate way. I have never been nor will I ever be worthy for God to use. It is only by God's Grace that He Lives in me and works through me as He sees fit.


Hi Faith, I think you are on track with keeping our sin confessed, mainly because it creates a wall between us and God. I think Sheryl might have been concerned that you meant the Holy Spirit would leave you (which I must admit I kind of took it that way) if you weren't good enough.

At any rate, I think you make a good point about sin getting in the way of God's purpose for us. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and for participating with us.


Blair, thanks for your comment. No, that's not at all what I meant to say. The Holy Spirit will never leave us. We're adopted, God's keeping us -Amen. I'll try harder next time to be more clear - I promise.


There have been countless times in my life where I jsut didn't heed the call or listen to God's leading and Iam sure missed opportunities I should have taken. Also, I find because I leave sin unresolved, and ignore it, even don't call it sin as you were saying, that it saps my joy and my strength. Yes the HS is in me, but I am not living life to its fullest.

(At firstI did a double take on that sentance, but then i quickly figured out what you meant.)

OK now to less serious matters - I LOVE LOVE LOVE your site design, The colours are beautiful and the masthead PERFECT! did you do it all yourself?

Janice (from LBY study)


Paul says, "I die daily". So true.


So, we're straight on the fact that God can use anyone, any time, for anything He decides? Clean, unclean, believers, even unbelievers? Okay! Now we have that all cleared up and we're going to all relax and be totally amazed by the work God us going to do in us through this study!

Faith, ain't it great to be forgiven?

Heather I.

Faith, I love your design too -- I feel like I can just come in here, kick off my shoes and relax around somebody being real! Thanks so much for blessing us with your insight. And I'm praying your little boy is getting well. I remember our daughter being so sick last year we had to feed her one tiny spoon of Pedialyte every hour because she couldn't keep any liquids down. It was a scary time.

Hey, I wrote a post today encouraging those in the group to write for God and not worry about critical blog readers -- it's scary to post our thoughts out for the whole world to see -- and the ones who actually post a comment are such a small minority of the ones who lurk and criticize mentally -- right? Don't give up!

Hope you can read this:


Hi Faith! I am so sorry it has taken me this long to get around to your blog. I'll try to do much better next week. I very much appreciate your honest thoughts and feelings about worthiness. I pray that we will all be encouraged, as we study together, that God can use any willing vessel to His glory! Have a great weekend, and I am looking forward to getting to know you better.

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